In class

Im sitting here thinking about last night. I miss him so much. It seems like everytime were away from eachother we fight I hate it so much I cry cause I don't know what to do I feel like when were seperated from each other for a long period of time that were not even together.  I know the reason why we fight is because im so in love with him that I hate the fact of not being next to him. I just want everything to be right and us both find a way to change and love eachother even when we are not by each others side. He means the world to me and in my heart I know that I don't wanna be without him EVER. I know I couldn't do it by myself. He is my back bone the person that brings me up when im down. He can make me so crazy about him, im crying and hurting one minute and the next minute he will says something that makes me smile all over again and I just want to say everything will be okay.. I know he might think I don't care but I care more then the world about him he's the reason why I am the person I am today.. Im still falling more in love with him everyday. Its just hard knowing he can't be next to me ever second of everyday hes the person I need the most. I can't wait till I can come home to him and know that he's going to come home to me it will make me so happy. I just hate the fact that we can't see each other and be next to one another. He's my love and my bestfriend so when he's not near I feel like I can't talk to anyone about how I feel because he is the only one that understands me and knows how to make evrything better. I cant do anything with out him because I just want to be next to him and do everything with him. It has to be him I tell everything to and do everything with..

The day he left :(

It was hard knowing he was going to leave because were not use to being away from each other for that long. I knew he is going to be gone for a while which it really sucks cause all we got is cell phones to talk which I'd rather see him in person because he always can put a smile on my face and make me laugh by the cute things he does and says!!. He's not even gone yet and I miss him already. Just thinking about him leaving me sucks. I wish he wouldnt have to leave and just stay here with me...

♥I miss him♥

                                    

Its been 3 days since I havent seen my babe. he is on vacation and I am so used to seeing him a lot. It sucks not seeing him that much. I just want to be able to see him, hold him, and kiss him. He's my everything. Even though its only been 3 days, 3 days to me feel like a life time without him. I cant wait till he gets back so I can just love him. Im just glad I saw him before he left or else it would feel like for ever with out him. Im so used to us trying to find a way to see eachother. The day he was going to leave he showed me a big suprise what I was waiting for, for so long which was my babies head stone:) that was the best suprise ever. It made me smile so much I loved it. Wow I cant imagine my life without him. He's the person I really love and want to spend the rest of my life with. I hate spending 3 days without him I cant imagine a life time.

Hurt

I feel like I can never do anything right anymore. I just think I am not good enough for him, he makes me feel like im nothing new just like im just here. I love him to death but I wish he would feel like he did before.  I love it when he appreciates what I try and do instead he just is like what ever. Gosh im begining to think I am just another girl to him. I know he loves me but i wish he would show me. He tells me im his everything but sometimes i feel like im not. i love him not matter what though he is the love of my life and that will NEVER change...

♥My Lil 1♥ June 3 2010

It was a rough day, but trying to get by as much I can. Losing my baby changed my life around and showed me reality of everything. It's hard because I wonder all these things about my baby like what he would have been like, or looked like, would I have been a good mother. I know that looking back at everything I wish I would have waited. I would have loved my baby more then anything in this life!! Days are hard for me I feel like a piece of my heart is missing!! I have my moments where I just break down. I hardly sleep and eat because everything reminds me of my baby boy.. He passed away May 18, 2010 but I know he is in a better place. I love you baby... 

0n3 L0v3

I love this guy Gabe with all my heart he is my everuthing my bestfriend , my babies dad. I love him a lot he is the reason why I am who I am today he's changed my life and made it BETTER.. We had a Wonderful baby boy that we named after his dad, Gabriel Garduno Silva he gave me the best thing in this earth. We have grown closer but also we are not the perfect couple. We both make mistakes, but try and work through are problems. Sometimes I feel crazy because one minute I love him and the next I don't want nothing to do with him. Its hard to let go of everything we've had because it is so special. You can only find true love once in your life time. I believe in my heart that i found my ♥True Love♥. He has been there for me through everthing, and I can tell him anything. He makes me smile when im down and we can act ourselves. He makes me blush and giggle when he says cute things. We have a great bond with eachother. I believe that him and I are ment to be cause of the way we met. It was like fait brought us together we transferred on the same exact day.  Our lives coming together was fate.I knew from that minute he was what I wanted. I never thought we would make it this far but I gave him my heart because I believed we can make the world believe in love by what we have.. I can't even imagine my life without him it would be the hardest thing if I would ever lose him. I hope we will last forever and be together forever until death do us part. There are no words to explain the way I feel in my heart about you, that our hearts have come together, as one. You are my life, my heart, my soul. You are my best friend:). You are my ♥one true love♥.  You are my destiny. I love you more today than I did yesterday, and I'll love you more tomorrow than I do today. Loving you is the only thing that makes life worth living.I love you and I always will. Hopefully, when that day comes, I will still have you by my side and you will be that last face I see. I will be able to hold you in my arms one last time and tell you how much I love you and how much you really mean to me.